I’ve been spending time lately having conversations with God. I say ‘conversations’ as a nice way of meaning ‘heated discussions verging on arguments!’ (I know…the nerve of some people!)
We are going through some very difficult circumstances right now…have been for awhile. Lately every time I pray, the word ‘acceptance’ has been front and center. Mind you, it’s not coming from me! (Hello stubborn, red-headed control freak 🙋♀️👩🏻🦰🤦🏻♀️) And until yesterday, I was completely missing His message.
I view ‘acceptance’ sometimes as a negative – I ‘must accept’ things as they are, just accept it, etc. When I hear that, it’s like a switch is thrown in my head and I immediately want to change things, find another way to do something so I don’t ‘have’ to accept it as it is now! That’s just my nature – if something can be done a better way, in my mind, then I’m going to try!
Well, I’ve been so overwhelmed lately with all of my trying…and getting nowhere! That feeling of being overwhelmed took on a life of it’s own and suddenly I was overwhelmed with not being able to ‘do’ a thing to change our circumstances. That just lead to sadness, anxiety, fear, worry and a feeling of helplessness. I’m not comfortable with that and I just knew I was doing things all wrong!
Yesterday, during my morning devotions, He kept saying Acceptance. I broke down…WHY? Why must it be this way? Why must it be so hard?!? I’m crying, the ugly cry, and suddenly I feel my father’s hands on my shoulders and the words ‘No, not that kind of acceptance.’
The battle is not mine, but God’s. I’m not resigning myself to accepting our current circumstances. I am embracing(accepting) His guidance, control, strength, presence and willingness to fight the battle! What I must learn to do is watch and wait…there is work to be done and the doors will open!
It was then I remembered an essential oil blend called Acceptance. I thought, wouldn’t that be neat to have right now.
‘Go look.’
What? Why would I have that? I don’t remember ordering that!
‘Go look!’
Yeah, it was there in my cabinet and now it’s on my wrists and over my heart. I still don’t remember ordering it or why I would have. God speaks to us in so many ways, it just boggles my mind – in a good way! I need to stop making things so difficult by trying to insert my control. My battle is not to do, it’s learning to let go!
Acceptance can be a very good thing.
SunDroppers 